modeling her new hat (made by me)

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i love…

~ patent leather shoes
~ diorshow mascara
~ friends that give without any expectations
~ the big bag of orange, pink, and orange+pink yarn that showed up at my door this weekend (and the sweet person who brought it)
~ vintage jewelry
~ big hugs
~ satin pillowcases and flannel sheets
~ graph paper notebooks
~ headbands with giant flowers on them
~ prime lenses at wide apertures
~ bookshelves overflowing with good memories and new escapes
~ beach houses overlooking soft private beaches
~ finding paperclips
~ brewing the perfect cup of tea
~ getting letters in the mail
~ using my cuisinart stand mixer
~ putting on tap shoes and dancing around the living room
~ sincerity
~ using the word “dungarees” instead of jeans, and “flat” in place of “apartment” (i don’t really say those things, but i appreciate people who do)
~ people that aren’t hard to read
~ laughter. lots and lots of laughter
~ feeling loved

i don’t love…

~ feeling insecure and left out; feeling vulnerable
~ goodbyes (i’m horrible at them in every way)
~ meat on my pizza
~ internet abbreviations like “LOL!” and “ROFLMAO!”
~ stores that don’t have the prices clearly marked
~ jay leno. i really really don’t love him
~ wearing pants. (i prefer skirts. i do own one pair of dungarees, for windy days)
~ dialing the phone
~ clutter
~ olives
~ people who are smug
~ pit-bull dogs
~ crohn’s disease, and the constant embarrassing need to slip off to the ladies’ room
~ falling out of touch and not knowing how to patch things back together

i would like…

~ to make a big pot of spaghetti, buy a bunch of cupcakes & booze, get out the good china, turn on some good music and invite all our friends over once a month, just like the old days (aka: 2006)
~ to stop trying so hard in some areas
~ to start trying harder in others
~ to have another baby
~ to own an iphone (but only if they start selling them for verizon. i love my mobile service)
~ to have a house-cleaner (other than “Bear and Me”)
~ to be a white house photographer for the obama family
~ to eat at el bulli before it all changes
~ to take a california roadtrip in a cute little convertible
~ to have a lunch date with julie andrews and meryl streep
~ to spend more time with my friends