[edited for brevity and to omit some melodrama.]

i treasured my trip, gained beautiful memories, had lovely hosts and lovely adventures.

the end of a trip is always hard for me, leaving a friend is always hard for me, leaving california is always sad for me. i’ve got so many things to think about, and i’m determined to find my positive side again, determined to get better and be better and look around and just smile more often; live with less fear, be honest in all ways, and embrace the things i’ve got.