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i want to write one of my lists, or something fun and fruity, or something thoughtful and light and not too pointed, but really….i just can’t ring one up right now. i’m so nervous, so moody and anxious and excited and scared and cautiously optimistic, and just generally obsessed. to some people it’s just an election, i suppose, but it just feels so incredibly important to me; such a matter of right and wrong. i don’t believe the poll numbers, won’t believe the outcome until it’s official, but i have HOPE. lots and lots of HOPE. that we can get this right, and get back on track. i want it so badly my teeth ache and my head hurts and that line in my forehead is getting deeper by the hour… but still, i have HOPE.

oh wait, ok. here’s a list, just a little one. let’s call it
[things i really really want now]:

~ emma to grow up knowing President Obama
~ NO on prop 8, YES on domestic partnerships/marriage for all responsible adults, without discrimination
~ a clear, uncontested outcome at the end of election night
~ peace, peacefulness, confidence in the future
~ a good bottle of wine, a nice evening in, and the ability to perfect the pistachio macaroon recipe which (after two tries) still eludes me

cheers, friends.